More Tired Than Tired

These days I really like being home. Five days away from home, I missed my bed. I like the fragrance left behind by my scented candles and soft sounds my cat makes at each inhale and exhale as he sleeps. It all seems so innocent and inviting. I wish I could enter my cats world of warm snuggles. Today, I can’t. I have two days of evening MRI scans that will  start tonight if our citywide dusting of snow doesn’t interrupt things. Please don’t snow more!


Yesterday was my usual every 4-week, longish-day at my cancer care center. At our last appointment for the day, with my social worker, SW added his 2 cents, “We’re tired. Kim has been here listening and talking to her doctors every 4-weeks for almost 6 years. Wouldn’t you be tired of that too?”

He is right. I have treatment fatigue.



Update: As I was finishing this post, I got a call and my MRIs have been rescheduled due to snow.


About kimmywink

I'm Kim. I've got advanced lung cancer. It sucks.
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11 Responses to More Tired Than Tired

  1. nmgleason says:

    Treatment fatigue. Absolutely. I hope you can rest up in your own bed with your own kitty!!

    Sent from my iPad


  2. Tammy Cleys says:

    I am so sorry for everything you have had to endure. The f’ing cancer, the chemo, the operations, the endless trips to the doctor, the pain, the fatigue, vacations cut short, and missing out on greyhounds due to the grapefruit. But, I am also very grateful that you were and are so strong to have persevered and flourished in so many other ways such your art and relationships with friends and family.
    Please let us know what we can do to make a day better…..any day, any thing.

  3. Doug says:

    Hi Kim, No doubt here that endless scans, blood work, Dr. Visits etc. for years wear on you. I hope it helps you knowing others seeing you plowing through it all, lets us know that we can get through our ordeals also. Take care!

  4. Alison says:

    You and SW have been amazing warriors for a long time. I hope SW’s comment to your social worker made sense to him/her. I love you both!

  5. Melanie says:

    Hang on cutie, prayers always ❤️

  6. Melanie says:

    Regarding your fatigue, my doctor put me on Adderol,which is really amphetamine, it helps.

  7. Gwendolyn says:

    Hi!!! Been thinking of you! XO

  8. DearMaizie says:

    Don’t know if anyone else has experienced this, but I have your blog bookmarked with just the root. The last post that shows up on Home is November 2018, so I assumed that was your last post. I looked you up on Twitter and see that there are other posts. Any idea why this is happening?

    Sounds like you are hanging in there strong. You are amazing.

  9. DearMaizie says:

    Oops, Disregard my comment. I had the wrong year!

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