Moving Forward


It’s here. That New Year. Time to shape up. Get that ball rolling in a new/better direction. Take what you’ve learned over your last year to make this one, this shiny new one even better!

Peeling my right eyelid open on Sunday, the 1st day of 2017, I noticed a green light glowing on the wall. It seemed new. Shifting my focus slightly downward I discovered my charging laptop was the culprit. I must have forgot to put my hat over the charging light. Wonder what else I forgot after yesterday’s late evening out. I closed my right eye.

I am finally off steroids and thus, sleeping and dreaming again. It’s awesome! I protested taking each daily dose. After countless months on Dexamethasone, the negative side effects were obvious. Blowing up like a balloon, craving sugar, irritability, achy joints and unable to sleep were just a few.

Weeks ago, that Ah-Ha moment happened, I was able to see a few good things it did. Breathing was easier. Moving about was challenging but possible. Getting in and out of my car was a cinch. Going to the bakery at 6 am for just out of the oven doughnuts was easy since I was already awake!

I still don’t want to be on them again. Ever. Not long term anyhoos. I know it may limit how doctors treat my cancer in the future. For now, this is where my line is drawn in the sand.

Now, laying still; thinking I’m supposed to get things rolling today. Huh. The only rolling I’m going to do is roll myself, gingerly to my right side. My right side remains difficult to lay on. The Ol’ Noggin is still quite ornery from my craniotomy last May. Not much I can do to change that.


Unable to fall back asleep on my right side, I fought my way out of tangled blankets to sit on the bed’s edge. Dangled feet search for slippers. My mind decides I am ready to take on 2017. Refrigerator shopping – here I come!

Hello 2017.


About kimmywink

I'm Kim. I've got advanced lung cancer. It sucks.
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17 Responses to Moving Forward

  1. Holly Pruett says:

    Hello to you, dear one. I love this photographic riff on the PDX airport carpet… your pedicure and slippers and bedroom style are so snazzy! I remember well how rough those steroids were on my dad following his craniotomy… so useful, and so problematic. Cheers to this side of that line in the sand. Sending you love for this new year, new fridge and all. Holly

  2. Melanie says:

    Happy New Year Kimmy. So glad for the update.

  3. Paula Berwick says:

    Happy New Year!!! I am so glad you are feeling better!!!

  4. Ahhh, Dexamethasone… I couldn’t wait to bring myself down to the bare minimum dosing for my chemo. Over the past two years, it has become much more tolerable to me and I’ve managed to reclaim much of my sleep time (though there is no denying that it poses a challenge when I’m on it). Wish you much luck with that!

    And, yeah, it certainly makes those early doughnut runs much easier…

  5. marcia wieneke says:

    Kim, so happy to hear from you again, and you sound so upbeat, we could not be happier for you. “Uncle Jerry will be in Oregon next week, hunting with your dad, and hoping to see you. Take care Kim and we wish you a Happy 2017. Love to you and SW

  6. Jennifer Lembach says:

    So glad you got to say goodbye to the nasty ‘roids!!! Yay!!

  7. Tammy says:

    Yeah for shedding the roid-rage!
    Refrigerator shopping??? Get one that matches your gourmet tastes!

  8. g says:

    hi! happy new year,

  9. I feel the same way! I did WBR without steroids because of what they do to me. I also live right around the corner from fresh doughnuts!😀 Just thinking of you and sending love!

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