Sinking Rocks

KW+SW“Kim, things are looking good, in both CNS (brain) and body.”

Relief. With a deep exhale I crumple towards my swollen belly. Hunched over, I pause and take a few breaths. In (one chimpanzee)…out (two chimpanzee); in (one chimpanzee)…out(two chimpanzee).

Thrilled, yet over come with exhaustion, I could only mutter that is wonderful.

A great conversation followed between the 4 of us in the room, doctor, nurse, husband, and me. Concerns were expressed. Goals were made. Action plan set in motion – that is as set as can be in Cancerville. My course will continue with 6-week scans, evil-decadron, of course alectinib, plus a handful of other medications to put into this body of mine.

Today, 20 hours later, parked at my dining table, a slight smile barely peaks out of inflated cheeks. Worry, sadness, depression, stress, anger, frustration, – intense feelings stowed away in my body dislodge. As if I were submerged in a pool of soothing warm water, my baggage releases. Plummeting like rocks to the bottom. No longer burdened, I am weightless. I am at peace.


About kimmywink

I'm Kim. I've got advanced lung cancer. It sucks.
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21 Responses to Sinking Rocks

  1. Thinking of you! Love good news!💕💕💕

  2. linnea11 says:

    ❤ Rock on girl.

    xo Linnea

  3. Congrats on an excellent report. Any chance you’ll be able to explore the southern half of the lower 48 before the year is out?

    • kimmywink says:

      Hi Denise – I’d love to shout out a confident yes! However… The W’s (SW and I) are quite apprehensive to make any kind of travel plans in my/our current state. Once bitten, twice shy. Perhaps next Spring it will be easier to say “hell yes we’re hittin’ the road!” 🙂

  4. Julie says:

    What good news! Glad to hear it.

  5. Alison says:

    Congratulations, KW! I’m so thrilled for you all and can only imagine what an emotional release it is/was. Love you!

  6. I am with you Kim, Keep fighting girl you are my hero for sure. I am sorry I haven’t been able to see you in so long- love and hugs- Matisse

  7. paula berwick says:

    Dear Kim,

    I have been following your blog for a while. I have many friends who are experiencing similar I circumstances . I just want you to know we are all praying for you. You are so brave!!!

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so glad you got some good news!!!

    Paula Berwick

    Sent from my iPad


    • kimmywink says:

      Hi Paula,

      Thanks for reading my blog and commenting! Feedback is always appreciated. Thanks for the prayers – I’m always accepting of them in any shape or form they are sent. 🙂 Kim

  8. naomits says:

    Oh, Kim, I’m sorry for all the burdens you’ve had to carry and trials you’ve endured. It’s a relief that things are looking good now, and that those negative feelings fell away. You deserve unburdened time!

    If you’re up for a visit or to meet for tea/coffee/lunch or are even just up for a delivery of food or books, I’d love to see you or drop something off. If not, no offense taken at all.

    I hope you’re reading this relaxing in the sun in your back garden.




  9. matissebradford says:

    I recommend step brothers for some comic relief. I have watched this movie like ten times!

  10. matissebradford says:

    cherish the times that you fell good and make the most of them, easier said then done. Let me know if you need anything. I know it doesn’t seem like it but I am here for ya darlin’!

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