Spending a Day

Like a rebellious teenager my care team announced, “We will get in trouble…That’s okay with us…We are going to do what is best for you!”

The words came at me like cold glass of water tossed in my face.

Let me make sure I heard you correctly… I won’t get excused from the trial if I get a spot zapped…YOU will get into hot water and you are okay with that. I will still get my cancer controlling Alectinib pills. 

The invisible shroud of sadness induced exhaustion I had been wearing for over a week vanished.

I am sure this is common practice, for a care center to take the heat with a patient’s best interest in mind. I want it to be if it is not.

Appropriately, later that day I found myself at the Oregon Coast. Feeling the warm gritty sand on my legs and feet. Watching kids and dogs play on the vast playground. Listening to the power of the ocean. I had no doubt that I was spending my day, my precious gift of a day, doing exactly the right thing.

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About kimmywink

I'm Kim. I've got advanced lung cancer. It sucks.
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13 Responses to Spending a Day

  1. Kim Ringen says:


  2. Jennifer Lembach says:

    Great news!!! So glad to hear that. Have a great time in Montana!!

  3. Wow, what a great care team! I know not all care teams would do the same. Dig those toes in the sand and zap away!

  4. Molly Beard says:


  5. linnea11 says:

    Go girl! And what a team!

  6. Mary O says:

    I too have stage IV lung cancer. I just found your blog today. I look forward to getting to know you through your posts.

  7. worry ,anxiety, sadness, they are exhausting. So glad that lifted for you.

  8. karalafferty says:

    I love how you refer to your day here, as a perfect gift of a day. My dear old (but actually quite young) dad has metastatic nsclc and I read all the blogs I can find for ideas/comfort/Etc. Your blog is particularly fabulous, thank you!

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