Where will you be three months from today?

5 years

The other day while picking up some holiday items I stumbled upon this book.  My first reaction was laughter.  Laugh out loud and get crazy looks kind of laughter.

I snapped a photo.  Sent it to my friend Marcy, a stage 4 ovarian cancer warrior princess, who would “get it” the way I “get it”.

Then I tried to take the book a little more seriously.  Took a breath in and exhaled; felt my shoulder blades lower towards my waist.  I re-read the cover.  Where will you be five years from today?  With neutral emotion the only thought that came to mind was “I hope I’m alive?” 

I set the book down.  I had zero interest in looking inside.

Next stop, a rounder of cards.  I had notes to purchase recognizing birthdays, christmas, and new years.  All events roughly 3 months out; my version of long-term planning.

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I'm Kim. I've got advanced lung cancer. It sucks.
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6 Responses to Where will you be three months from today?

  1. linnea11 says:

    Oh Kimmy. Heart…

    Linnea

  2. Ruth Ashton says:

    Yeah…I get it. I had the same problem after I saw a book titled, “Fear of Fifty.” Really? Fear of FIFTY? The upside of doing short-long-term planning is that, because the chunks of time are smaller, they’re easier to swallow. It seems a more honest way to live.

    Hang tough.

  3. Liz says:

    I know what you mean. I just had a conversation last night, about commitment. I said, forget about five years, I’m lucky if I can get six months ahead of myself. Oh, to once again have the luxury of the five-year plan…

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