I was turned onto a course called Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction for People Healing from Cancer by a bright friend of mine who also has cancer. I’ve completed 7 of the 9 classes. A complete review of the course will wait until all classes are finished. To date I’m quite satisfied; the instructor Kimberly Carson is excellent.
The gist of this class is mindfulness-meditation. We do a lot of meditation. I mean A LOT. So far the meditation forms practiced include laying, sitting, yoga, and walking. Hands down my favorite practice is yoga…Yam likes it too.
Yesterday (Sunday the 10th) I completed a 7-hour silent meditation class. (Even the 1-hour lunch break was silent eating.) I went into the day of meditation with much resistance. Flat out, I did not want to go. I did a good job at coming up with reasons to not go, excuses. In the end I reluctantly went to class.
One thing in particular that made me want to skip is I have a big scary black hole in my head. Picture a bakers box labeled “Lung Cancer- Terminal”. I think I’ve addressed this skeleton but had I? I did not want to go down this rabbit hole, one more time.
I successfully made it though class. Success was measured by the fact that I could remember where I parked my auto when it was done. As expected, a range of emotions surfaced. I was pleased when thoughts of death and dying arose, I did not panic. I even briefly, very briefly, acknowledge my thoughts on possible brain and bone metastases – things that scare the shit out of me – without a freak out.
You should all now sit silently for 10 minutes – sans cell phone, book, computer, etc… Now imagine that multiplied by 42. That was my Sunday.
Kim, you are braver than I can ever imagine being. Wow.
You would be pleasantly surprised to see what you’d be capable of doing if you felt it was necessary.
Kim, There was another young woman with lung cancer at the group on Sunday. I don’t remember her name! Shoot! But her blog site is http://www.chemo-sabe.com
Great! I’ll be sure to give it a look.
Does Yam Yoga have titled positions such as Cat Taking a Nap, Yam Rest (as despicted in the photo), the Big Orange Stretch, etc, etc ???