It’s the honest truth. I love to plan things. I love it when things go according to plan. I can do spontaneous, how SW likes to roll. But, I really enjoy the planning process. I do my planning old school, with pen and ink- even though I love my iPhone.
Ah, life. It has clearly told me that you can wish and strive for things (plan them) however without notice you can be forced to take another path. Perhaps even an unpleasant one.
With this new understanding of how life is, I’m struggling with how to plan my future. I want so very badly to live to be 85. Yet, reading the statistics on lung cancer survival, not many of us make it past the 5 year mark.
I cautiously plan or more so accept, that I can die from my lung cancer within the next 4 years. This is not giving in to my cancer by any stretch of the imagination. It is just understanding and accepting my situation. I have to have plans for this as it may happen.
The way things worked out for me I ended up with 3 different retirement accounts. Two of them I can begin drawing on at age 65. I giggle when I read the literature for them. I would love to make it 30 years with advanced lung cancer but I can’t help but plan that this money will be left to SW. The third account is a 457, like a 401K for government employees. Without paying any penalties, I can cash out all the money now.
Instead of focusing on planning for my uncertain future, I am going to focus on the now. I’ve made a decision to cash out my 457 account and have some fun. SW and I have things we’ve planned and now it is time to do them. (I hear her…yup, she is singing!)
I constantly see people make decisions that are focused on the distant future. I did this a majority of the time. Let me remind you that the future you have in your head may never come.