Yesterday I went for a second time to Kaiser’s cancer counseling therapy group. Anyone who’s life is impacted by any kind of cancer is invited to attend. I like the group and want continue to go to the meetings as long as I’m not working- the group meets during normal business hours. The challenging part for me is I’ve gone two times now and both times a therapist has announced the death of one of the groups regular members.

I know that dying goes hand in hand with living but this…this is something else. I really am reluctant to go back.

If it happens again (another death is announced) in two weeks when my schedule allows me to attend, I’m tossing in the towel. I think the survival rate of the group would be better off without me going.

Once again I am shocked by the world with cancer that I’ve been tossed into.