One more day of body destruction left. Right now, I question if I can handle it.
Things took a turn for the worse over the weekend. I blame it on letting some really stupid person get to me. Why do we do that to ourselves? I have unheard of strength because of my amazing support system; then one bad apple makes a snotty comment and it sets me back to ground zero. Then my body hurts like I’ve never felt before.
Really, how does this happen? I’ve received countless cards, emails, phone calls, and text messages sending love, strength, hope, positive thoughts, etc…and still one, one little comment from an individual I don’t even think moderatly-warm thoughts of, can bring me down.
What this has once again taught me, unfortunately by slapping me upside the head, is how much mental and emotional health dictates how my body feels. I always knew this but it seems to be exaggerated when I’m here at rock bottom.
To mend the situation I am going to plop down on my couch, snuggle up with the blanket Pam gave me, and burn the candle that Tracy gave me. Then grab my stack of cards and reread each one of them. Next I’ll reread all the well wishes posted on this website. I’ll wrap things up by looking at my amazing Aquarius vs. Cancer book.
Thank you- Thank you-Thank you to everyone who sends me cards, writes well wishes, or participated in the book. As you see one individual, as strong as I am, can not fight lung cancer or cancerous people alone.